S and D really care and concern about me but there are times I wish that they can stay out of the picture and carry on with their happy life. I might be playful and nuisance, but I'll be serious when it comes to real business. S and D wanted to make salvation. Unfortunately, we cannot expect things to follow the way we wanted.
Everything between me and E was past tense. Despite what happened, I never hate E, not even for a second. I believe everything happens for a reason. Speaking from heart, I was happy during that period hanging out with E. No quarrels, no fights, just simple days with outdoor activities, cooking, cards game, pillow talk, roller blading, steamboat, watch funny videos and maybe movies and pool. E called me almost every night and I rushed home from gatherings just to chat with him before he flew off. He texted me from oversea and shared interesting stories and jokes with me. E waited for me to text him when I knocked off and we both put on smiles while reading from the hp screen. E has a pair of sparkiling eyes and you can feel his sincerity when he talks.
There was nothing ongoing between me and E. It is an existing special feeling.
Everything was calm until the return of B. B was the ex-gf of E. They had been together for a year or two. Then E decided to patch things up with B. E has a friend name DD and he knew I never blame him.
I had a short conversation with DD...
DD: We can't trust ANYBODY, do you agree.
Me: I do not agree.
DD: I don't think we should completely trust other people.
Me: I do not agree. It’s the trust that makes the bond. In life, people broke trust, but that doesn’t mean that we should stop trusting. They might hurt us unknowingly, but I believe it pays to be kind. People make choices to lie, people make choices to trust. It’s just a process of decision making. We have to be responsible for our decision. E is still a kid. Despite his doing and humiliation to me, I never hate him. In fact, I still trust him. It’s not a lesson learnt, but a choice made."
DD: Yes, thank you, I learnt from what you said :) it's choice that matters :)"
Ever since then, I stopped contacting him because I knew that he had made a choice. I respect E's decision. It's really hard to forget someone you spent a quarter of your life with.
D thought that it was being unfair to me. She thought that she was partially at fault and should be responsible for our first meeting encounter. She spent time talking to E over coffee sessions. I felt that E still treats us as friends despite his negative reactions.
Hey bitch, you mentioned that E longer wish not to befriend D. You are wrong. You both patched up on the 22nd October 2012 (I did not mean to remember this inauspicious date, but it happened to fall a week before D's birthday). For your information, they were having coffee session on the 19th October 2012. Oh... I thought someone mentioned that E wished not to befriend D since a long time ago. Oh well, well, well, let's see who's the real bad bitch now.
Then another tragic happened...
Maybe it's all fated, we met in the club. I would be lying if I were to say I'm feeling fine. Those memories hit me instantly. I went out on my own to have a breather. D refused to give up. She insisted talking to E. I knew that was impossible and not doing any good to both parties. I texted E and told her that D was looking for her. He was with B most probably and I did not carry any hope of him replying. To my surprise, he did. He even added a comment saying "Okk Stay safe". For split seconds, I knew we could still be friends.
I told D to call E via phone instead of meet up considering his situation with B by his side. D was talking to E when I found her. Things weren't looking good but I didn't expect it to turn out so bad. B was yelling crazily over the phone. The frequency of her pitch was so high that it could easily shatter a piece of glass. Sadly, I had never encounter such a situation in my entire life with a crazy woman (I wanted to call her a bitch actually) shouting over the phone non-stop for more than ten minutes. She left me in daze and bewilderment, staring into the space with my rolling eyes as my jaw dropped.
B was calling D her shameless. She claimed that E and D are no longer friends. She insisted that E deleted our Facebook and contact(s).
That was all bullshit.
Hey bitch, listen up. I was the one who deleted E from Facebook. I was the one who deleted his contact. I am a selfish girl and I love myself more than anything else. I will never allow anyone to trample on my pride. I am snobbish because I am proud of who I am.
Do you think I'll give him the chance to delete me? Stupid, silly, idiotic. Lol ~
I was really disappointed in E for showing B all our private messages. That was really disrespectful of him, leaving me speechless. Well, I know that they are back together but there is no such need to conduct a showhand.
D was sobbing out her heart while B was yelling on the top of the voice. I overheard the entire conversation and I was about to hit the rooftop. I was angry and upset but I kept mum all the while. In fact, I got a shock of my life because I have never met anyone who shouted so crazily over the phone. It was god damn classic. B was calling D a shameless bitch who was leeching on E.
Hey bitch (That's the best term for you, sorry), I kept quiet all the while because I did not want to worsen the situation. I did not want to make thing difficult for you, D and E. I did not want to drag myself into the picture so as to avoid unneccessary misunderstanding. It does not mean that you are right. It's just that I cannot bother to debate with someone unreasonable like you.
Things might not turn out well between me and E. No matter what, D and E are still friends. There is nothing wrong about them contacting one another. D is not interested in E. D only sees him as a friend or a little brother.
What the fuck is wrong with them making contacts?
What are you so uptight about?
Just because of my short term history with E, you condemned D.
What are your worries?
Are you worried about the rekindle of special feelings between me and E?
Or do you not trust your man enough?
B mentioned my name over the phone for several times. She insisted that I was harassing E non-stop and refused to let go of him. As usual, she called me shameless as well. No sense of creativity. Tsk tsk...
I strongly believe that there is a short circuit in your puny stupid brain. You must be having haullucinations. Doctors are the only ones who can save you for now. I had never contacted E since 22nd October 2012. I did not speak a single word to him during this period. Are you blind? Deaf? Sick?
B shouted at D, telling her that E and D were not even friends. I believe that E opted for an easy wa out and constantly told D that they were not friends. I could not believe E was saying word for word as he was told. No freedom of speech at all.
Fuck it and stop the manipulation. I had never been disgusted as much as before until I heard your voice. It's irritating, crude and disrespectful. You can't even respect yourself.
Hey E (I wish to call retard actually), please kindly wake up. It is not the end of the world just because you have a girlfriend. I sympathized your plight for a moment, making yourself a look-alike with puppet. You are born with flesh and blood. No one should control your life even if it's your dearest ones. I don't wish to comment much either. It's just a waste of time anyway.
Hey bitch, stop dragging me into the picture. I was never involved since the beginning. That conversation was purely about the friendship between E and D. I did not contact him unless I am on the verge and that happened once only. D and I are not leeching onto him. We may not have a pretty face, a beautiful figure or attractive features but we have a kind and beautiful heart.
We don't hurt others like you did.
We don't smear others like you did.
We don't slap others like you did.
We don't scream like a rooster like you did.
We don't manipulate others like you did.
It doesn't mean that you are right about D just because I did not retaliate. I am looking at a bigger picture. Nut brain like yours will never understand. I did not yell at you on the phone because I find you simply childish of doing so at the age of 23, oh well. I did not want to waste my precious time on shallow people like you. The thought of yelling at you back over the phone makes me feel so cheap. Honestly, I don't even have the urge to quarrel with you. My graciousness does not allow my pride to stoop as low as you. Your manipulative actions are making me so sick. I am pretty sure your singing is terrible from the way you yell like a rooster. Work on it, rooster.
I pity the one suffering your screams. It's god damn disrespectful and epic.
Last but not least, you sounded like a rooster.
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