Wonderful life

Dear Ms Victim,

Someone who tagged @ 28th May 2011

I sincerely hope that this is the last time I ever gonna direct a special message to you. I'm not trying to be an ostrich, stucking my head into the soil, living in my own world ignoring everything that's going on around me. I kept mum for days trying to make you calm down, hoping that this awful memory or hatred of you might go someday. I put myself in your shoes and tried to understand everything you had been through. I'm so disappointed in everything you did.

I would like to declare that I'm blogging about this solely between you and me. No third party is involved.

Yes, in your own perspective, your part of story, a particular someone had done you wrong. Thus, that's just part of the story you knew right from the beginning. There's always the other side of a story. Some secrets can be kept for hundreds years without being revealed. Life's not just about running at your own pace, at the same point of running track. We, humans have to step ahead before we learn to get on with life. That is life, a part of rules and regulation in our entire years on the earth.

Yes, you hated my bff to the core. Hatred doesn't mean the whole wide world. Hating her shall be as good as draining your life away. One year, two years, or even three. It's not worth spending your valuable years and youth for. We must learn to take thing easy no matter how hard our life is. I'm not pretending to be pessimistic, neither am I as strong as you thought. I'm not a small girl anymore, I went through my learning journey as well. I went through hard times that you might not even be able to imagine me crying over about. Nothing of yours can be compared to mine.

My dad went bankrupt almost twice. I had to stop schooling and work for my own fees. I cried hard in silence when I had no money to pay for my semester. I had to stop my favourite piano hobby that stayed with me for ten years. I was accused not once but twice for some serious issues I had not done, and I gritted my teeth and blinked over the time. My ex boyfriend nearly discarded me for not being a pretty pageant, for another girl.

Don't you find this scenario familiar?

I dumped my ex boyfriend in the end. I got over it within 3 days, it's gonna hurt a while but it's better than inflicting a scar to yourself. If someone doesn't treasure my love, the more I should treasure myself. He's not gonna share your pain. Love yourself and work forward instead of looking backward.

Look at me, am I not doing well?

Till today, he regretted what he had done and tried all means to seek my forgiveness. Unfortunately, all I can say to him is, fucking get lost bastard. I'm glad that I never cling onto the past. That's why I managed to get a super bf who love me for who I am. No matter how fat I am, how ugly I am or how unreasonable I am. I know he love me. That is acceptance.

I never feign myself infront of him. I gobbled food like a lion, woke up from bed with lion head and spoke to him in horrible breathe. I talked to him the way I want and force him to play round of sadistic games with me. He cooks and buy everything I wanted in the whole wide world. He cares for my family means he cares for me too. That is care.

He talked me into doing the right things at the right time. His lectures remind me to learn and never afraid of failure. He gave me encouragement and reprimanded me when I'm in the wrong. That is concern.

Do you really know what love is?

Little girl, you are just going through your learning journey. Relationship is not everything. You are absolutely right, we need companion. Probably, someone dear to our hearts. Definitely, not someone who's not truthful. You got to be cautious in every steps that you are taking. Right now, it's just a slight mistake. You still had a long way to go. Just let this grudge and hatred die over the time.

I know my bff, I trust her for who she is. I'm not going to cast her aside just because she is in a pool of shit. We had strong bondings and it's not something anyone can destroy just by saying something mean. I understand what you are driving at, but I standby her.

So what if she had done it?

So what if she hadn't done it?

I doubt it matter anymore. Seeking for an answer is not going to save your relationship. I'd be glad to see you with a nice and great bf instead of someone who lied to you for numerous time. I'd be disappointed if you ever trust someone like that. I see your purpose of doing so (referring to tagboard). You can make the whole world hate her, but you can't deny the fact you are venging our your anger hoping to feel better. The great sensation shall never last for a lifetime. It makes you a monster.

You can choose to standby your hatred, trust me, it's not gonna get you any further. I don't mind reading or replying to your tag, but I hope you will stop all your slandering and accusation. Life's better if you step ahead and make it wonderful.

I'd be your listening ears. I felt unjust for you for the things you had said. Still, legally, I had to remind you that my bff reserve all rights against your slandering and threatening towards us. I hope you understand what I'm conveying to you and be a little mature. Handle things with pride. Held your head high, do things with pride, have your own say and be who you are. That's where charisma comes from.

Your listening ear,

Pzyy

All time favourites

17th May 2011

Happy Vesak Day to everyone even though it's over. We had made the best selection of dates to execute our shopping plans. Tard was poor, I'm the poorer (Heartbreaking). We always dream about having a branded bag or wallet (Or maybe something else). Definitely, it's true that branded doesn't mean everything in this whole wide world. The truth is, no one can resist owning it. We were working adults and definitely we wanted to own something that we really desire or yearn about. Before I continued on this topic, let's settle lunch.

Recommended Tard to this restaurant for BBQ-ing. Mmm, she found it a so-so as she kept comparing with the one she had in JB (if I'm not wrong). Definitely, if I had a choice, I sure preferred flying my way to Korea and have the real one. If you had been to Korea, I'm sure you tried the local black pork and top graded beef which can be really expensive. In fact, this restaurant is good enough for the price we were paying. It's not the authentic ones though. We had bacon as she's not supposed to consume too much of beef due to some special reason that I shan't say (Else she's bound to make my life miserable). It's quite sinful though (Oops).

The smart lass failed to sleep early. I'm so surprised that she told me that she had been watching drama series in the middle of the night. It's not her usual habit therefore it's kind of creepy.

Water retension had been haunting me. I guess water retension doesn't apply to all the girls. I'm one of the victim. Y'know, girls have special days monthly and so do I (I'm a girl duh). During these special days, I will start to bloat and look really swollen. It's not because I gained weight. My weight remains the same except my face, arm, legs and boobs tend to expand or look really bloated as if imma balloon or pumpkin. May god bless this evil water retension never come near me more than an inch. Hmph.

Pictures can speak a thousand words, I shall let it do the talking now.

It was a scrumptious dinner as we rubbed our tummy in glee.

Right after our scrumptious lunch, we executed our shopping plan. My bf's birthday was around the corner and I was dying to get him something he really wanted. I could only think of an LV wallet. I bought a brown checkered design for him as the black one had a really rough surface.

It was then Tard caught a glimpse of a purple Gucci long wallet. Her eye were blinking like diamonds. Amazingly, she got it in the end. It was really worth the price. Furthermore, it's her favourite colour purple.

It was then I realised something...

I had never purchased any branded goods for myself in my entire life. I shall hug my pillow and let out a mighty cry. I do own branded goods but not many (I'm poor, really!) I had only perfumes and wallet, that's about it. The wallet was a gift from bf, it's not something I purchased by myself. The perfumes that I owned weren't paid by me. Bf bought them for me. Oh, it rings a bell now. I bought the Escada perfume during my trip to Thailand. I bought it with Tard and it cost less than 80 bucks. I still own it but I hardly use it. Till today, it's still 90% full. I can't imagine how Tard manage to finish spraying the entire bottle. She's already using her 2nd bottle of Gucci Envy Me while I'm still at the first bottle. Sigh.

Rochor Beancurd

The weather was damn hot and humid. My skin was melting warm. We wanted to be seated outdoor when Tard caught sight of a gigantic lizard. I'm so mad happy that I missed the sight. I'm really afraid of lizards. They had this creepy look that gave me endless goosebumps.

We were seated indoor. It's still fucking hot. The uncles were frying doughstick and the heatwave hit against me over and over again. Honestly, I really thought myself to be well done (Steak...) I quickly shifted to the other corner. There's a big fan blewing at me directly. Still, the wind was hot. Ahhhh....

It's definitely my all time favourites.

Have a nice day and good luck.

Cheers,

Pzyy

Everyday is a birthday

Celebrate your everyday just like your birthday,

I'm completely drowned by birthdays of friends and family. Nearly five birthdays excluding Mother's Day and Father's Day are more than enough to drain my blood. Necessary money had got to be spend on your love ones without fail. I'm declaring bankrupt almost every month end. My face turned into a mask of horror when I read the price tag silently. Deep in my heart, I had a strong sensation of being pierced.

I had been having a fun time recently. Outings with friends, family and loves can make your day perfect. Bf had showered me with everything I wanted as though it's my birthday every single day. Despite his birthday, I got to choose my desire destination and even choice of food.

Bf brought me to Night Safari, and that was my virgin trip. It's awesome to see flying bats and squirrels except poor photography for the day due to low lighting. Slow loris climbing down branches that put you to sleep. Amazingly, I can cycle already except being stucked at the stage of making turns whereby old man turned to laugh at me and shattered my heart.

I'll try my best to update as often as I can. I listed a list of to be posted and it does freak me out. My memories had been left behind and I gonna picked them up step by step.

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These are some answers to the tagboard. Up to date of 25th May 2011.

I permed the side of my hair at times when I'm bored. It's really easy. All you have to do is, bun up your hair or do a simple pony tail. Section each side of your hair into 3 parts and tong them for approx 8 second. Apply hairspray or hairwax evenly to maintain the curl. If your curl tend to loose up after hours, just use your finger and twine it around in the curl direction.

I do have a very nice bf. I agreed to it absolutely. His hormones is definitely not working hard enough to get angry with me even when I become an irritant trying hard to ruin his day. It's still a challenge to me. But he did lecture me strictly when I did horrible stuffs (Too many to be mentioned) in front of him.

My bff is using the so-called wide contact lens (I'm not sure about the exact term). Well, I'm still getting use to it when she's wearing that. Y'know, it made me trembled in fear when she looked into my eyes wearing it. Haha, made me felt as though she got a pair of puppy eyes. Honestly, such lens really make ppl look good in photo with big looking eyes. I'm not too sure about sizes or whether they came in sizes. I don't wear contact lens and I never wear it before. I do have eyesight problems like all the people. It's not really that serious to an extend whereby I can't see without a pair of spectacles. Thanks KJ for your compliment but I don't think many people would agree to your saying (haha). I know my limits.

To haters...

I don't understand why you wanna scold my bff in my tagboard. In fact, you seemed to lecture me indirectly as well (Why should I be ashame??? Doesn't make sense at all). I had no idea what you are driving at. I had no idea who you are, you know nothing about me. I believe you might feel better by calling up my bff and start pouring your woes to her instead of my tagboard. It's a sure better option.

Have a nice day and never mistreat yourself.

Cheers,

Pzyy

A melodious tune

8th May 2011

I was enjoying some barbequeing session with bf at Far East Plaza when I began to text Tard. She was about to meet Vena in town. I had a sinful thought. I can't help sending bf home. To my surprise, my bf had a really good temper and high tolerance. Sometimes, I did wonder to myself what he is made of. He actually agreed to go home and remind me to enjoy myself.

I met him for only a few hours and he didn't mind about me casting him aside halfway through. It was amazing that he wasn't angry. Probably not a little bit at all. He even accompanied me till Tard reached town. I was so afraid that he might be angry. In the end, my worries were just nothing.

I stained my clothes during the barbeque. I had no choice but to changed into my newly bought clothes. No one would like to walk around in totally stained clothing. Unfortunately, Tard wore the same outfit and we turned out to be TWINS. We looked like twins wearing the same clothing. It's all coincidental. It wasn't planned beforehand.

Tard and I went shopping for a while as Vena was caught up in a bus breakdown. Tard and I always thought ourselves to be jinxed. We tend to bring misfortune to ourselves or others. Few years ago, one of our friend actually broke his slipper when he was with us. Poor Vena suffered before she could met us. Funniest part was that, she even joke about how we had put her in such a difficult scenario and agreed that we were kind of jinxed. Sobbed. She had not yet experienced the worst.

By the way, it was my first meeting with Vena. Amazingly, she was able to take my type of jokes and managed to counter attack. Tard and I were into vulgar and lame jokes that many failed to understand. Till today, no one from our school managed to understand the main objectives of our jokes and Vena managed to.

We went to Courts to enquire about laptop as Tard was looking for one (Well, as for now... I don't think so anymore). That retard staff introduced her a laptop that had not exist in the salesfloor yet. It's a waste of time. Nobody would ever put a deposit for something that you had no seen before. He even set up restrictions about deposit being non-transferable to another laptop. It was then Vena hit the roof top, I could sense it totally. She was talking firmly, strictly to the staff, trying hard to reason it out with the staff in an unfriendly tone which scared the shit out of me. The staff must be really frightened off by Vena. Before we left, we need not even place a deposit. All Tard need to do, is to make a call to place an order.

Next, we headed to Cold Stone for ice-cream. Mama-mia.

We simply sat and chatted for an hour. It was when Tard told her version of story while I added spices to it. Tard must be really upset about her story. To my surprise, all girlfriends tend to spot check on their bf. I mean as in checking of handphone contents and etc. It was then I realise I had never done that before. Not even once for the past 5 yrs with my bf.

I seriously find something wrong with me. Everyone had this tendency to check except me. To be honest, I'm not even the least curious about the content in his handphone. Well, it's time for me to run a check. Let me think about it. Should I check it out right infront of him? Or should I run a check when he's in the bathroom or something?

Well... well... well...

*Grinning from teeth to teeth* 

It's probably due to our similar outfit. To an extend, we looked like Vena's guardian angel. Vena too can't stand the attention from the onlookers.

Next, we recommended Vena to try out Alp Cafe. It was a really nice place I swear. You can play darts, poker or even had a few round of k-session if you don't mind singing infront of crowd. It's nice place to chill out. It had comfy chair that can turn round and round.

Tard and I had been singing non-stop.

We had pizza.

Vena got to work the very next day. Up to mischief as usual, we tried our best to keep her with us as long as possible. Nice and steady, she did. She took the exact last bus home.

We still refused to go home. People gonna thought that we were some drunk bitches with red bloomy face walking around the street. We weren't drunk, infact awake. It's the burning weather that was reluctant to stop burning the earthlings even in the night time.

We weren't drunk, we passed by a drunkard actually. That drunkard must have thought himself to be drunk which explained his endless insensible remarks. Most probably, he was filled with surprise when he saw 2 similar figures that passed by him in just a whiff. As you see, Tard and I were wearing the same top. It was within our expectation to cause haullucination of people (which wasn't).






The foreigner kept asking...




Are you two twins???

Surprisingly, I answered him abruptly like no body business.

No, we are not.




There he went again...

Are you twins???

We are not twins.

It made me felt as though we were some long lost friends.






We walked all the way to Coffee Club and had sandwiches. The weather was damn hot despite night time. Tard and I were perspiring like crazy.

Lychee soda with ice-cream

Tard and I chatted for quite sometime before we headed home. It's really late. It's almost 4am in the morning and her brother kept messaging her. Tard can't help chatting too since she was in a blue mood. You know, people tend to talk more or search for entertainment when they are facing some drastic change in their life.

Unfortunately...

Consequences of staying out late can't be avoided for Tard.

The very next morning she woke up from bed, a less than 2 hrs of sleep as we chatted over the phone when she got back.

Her mum ROARRRRRRED at her.

Hahaha, she bbm me in the following day about being yelled. I was laughing like a crazy fella. I just can't help imagining her soul flying out and cartoon wind-like blew against her face real hard.

It's hilarious!!!

Probably to me only.

Have a nice day.

Cheers,

Pzyy

Hatched (Part 2)

4th May 2011

After our breakfast at Hatched, we went to East Coast Park. To be honest, I can't handle a bicycle. I guess I sound a little weird. I cannot ride a bicycle. Haha, how I wish there's hole right infront of me that I can jump in right away. I always had balancing problem with wheels. Anyway, I planned to get a twin bike. It's fun and comfy I swear. Bf would ride at the front while I ride behind him. At the same time, I need not balance at all.

Most of the time, I did not paddle. He always reprimand me for how bad I am. That seriously made me a sinful person indirectly since he's the only one exhausting energy. Anyway, my life ain't that good anymore.

You get to eat fish when you fish with a fisherman.

You can fish for your life if you learnt fishing from a fisherman.

Bf kept remind me using indepth proverbs. I understand what he was trying to say. Still, I tried my best to avoid my upcoming disaster.

I'm actually learning how to ride a bicycle.

I seriously thanked god for saving me. It rained all of a sudden. Woohoo! YAY!

The raindrops went pitter pattering without notice. I ran all the way to the nearest Coffee Bean. Give myself a pat on the shoulder that I can stop learning for a while. It's the greatest torture.

I had my ice-brended mocha again.

We waited for an hour and the rain just refused to stop. It rained so heavily that day that certain area in Singapore was experiencing flood. Bf wanted to rest in Coffee Bean Cafe while I preferred not so (He finds me a sadist lol). Off we go for bowling.

The bowling alley at ECP was filled with uncles and ah pek. Haha, no idea why too. They were drinking coffee (Lim kopi) and some even bowl.

Apparently, the socks was of better quality compared to Safra ones.

We bowled until the rain stopped before resuming to my cycling lesson. Ok la, I can cycled already. Making normal turns and U-turns are currently the only thing that I can't do. It's not because I'm not sportaneous enough. It took me just less than 30 minutes to kick off, it's so hard to learnt everything. I'm still not that great in balancing.

Oh ya, we had Sushi Tei for dinner. Drools.

I shall not further elaborate any further since they are more or less about ONLY FOOD.

The prawn was absolutely yummy. It's pan fried or fried? Well, I'm not that sure. The only thing I'm sure about, it's big and DELICIOUS.

Home sweet home with a filling stomach.

Have a nice day.

Cheers,

Pzyy