Unexpectedly

Days hadn't been easy for me. Even so, I was really grateful to a friend unexpectedly. I never thought that I would ever be grateful to him. Well, I used to bicker with him since secondary school days. It can be a minor or a major bickerings, and we would be shouting or pulling one another's hair. I was young then, and I did many things that anyone could have done it as well. All along, I thought that he was just a friend whom like to disturb me. In fact, he understands me. I too know him, but I never said things crystal clear. Somehow, his words of encouragement miracly made me plucked up my courage.

 

He told me that he was disappointed in me because he thought that I've changed. I turned into a weakling who only loves to cry and play an emo-nemo. He missed my guts fighting for my rights each time I disagree with an issue. I was quite a busybody for your information, but I meant well. There are people who understand my good thoughts, but probably not all.

 

Whenever I see my friends down with sorrows about unnecessary or redundant stuffs, I would probably give them a tongue lashing or even a heartfelt message to wake them up. I don't like watching people sinking into depression. The urge to wake them up simply dawn on me. Being a busybody, I like to meddle with their business. Definitely, I will not overdo it. I'll not cross the limit. I'll just stand by my faith and integrity as long as I believe what I'm doing is right. That's me.

 

I never grumble because I believe grumbling will get me to no where. I rather spend the energy for grumbling on resolving problems arised. I had goals and I knew exactly what I wanted. I take pride in everything I do. I'm glad to have a friend who knows me well.

 

 

There is no boundaries for love

I'm currently enjoying my single life. I'm so glad that I can have more time with my dearest girls who had been there for me whenever I need them. I can have fun as much as I wanted or yearned for. The past had stop daunting on me. I wasn't affected by my breakups anymore (100% sure). To be exact, there's nothing wrong with my previous relationship. As time goes by, I just realised that the problems that lie within just cannot be resolve or eased. I tried to bury it under the deep blue sea, hoping that I can drown it. But it's like a intermittent volcano that might spark off quarrel anytime. I've let go of it completely (^__^) Credits to my love ones.

I'm a hopeful person. I'll definitely not let this unhappiness stop my happiness from coming in. It's pointless to stay stationary at a same spot. No matter what happens, we just have to move on. Moving on leads us to happiness. We don't just sit by and wait for happiness to knock on the door, we look for happiness.

I'm not ready for a new relationship at this moment. I'm just not ready, not because I'm still affected by the past. I need some refreshments before I kick off once again. I had no intention to jump into a relationship for the time being. I probably need another few months before I'm ready. Well, it all depends. Because I don't really know when I will be ready. It can be anytime as well, lol.

I don't wanna make a choice because I'm in no position to choose. I was a little demoralised because I felt that I'm not a good girlfriend. I felt inferior because I can't wash, cook or even do simple household chores. Basically, I think that I can't fufil duties as a good girlfriend. There are many changes that I would like to make before I jumped into a new relationship. I want to be a good and responsible girlfriend no matter who my the other half would be. But y'know, it will be good if my next half can wash, cook and do household chore. Oops =x I'm just saying, not praying for it (Maybe I did pray alittle, I don't want to lie, lol).

 

I wanna learn how to cook, and do simple household chores. I don't wanna be a just a fun girlfriend who only knows how to play (well, I have to say, that's my forte). I don't have to be a perfect one, but I wanna work hard and try to make myself better. I already set my plan. Probably I gonna start with fried rice, sounds a little retarded and I know. Sad to say, I still can't cook fried rice. Even if I did, no one dares to eat. Sigh.

My girls seem to worry for me alot. They kept pushing me into matchmaking sessions. Well, I'm 23, ok, I don't wanna lie either. I'm turning 24 in a month time. My heart just shattered. I heard a loud crash. I'm just kidding. I may be of the same age as my friends, but due to some reasons, I'm alot more playful than them. Hyperactive can be a big problem at times. Even so, I'm good in handling heartfelt issues maturely. Tada! They probably worried that I might feel lonely.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller (everyone taller except, why??)

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.

Actually, I'm not lonely because I know I have real friends who care for me. I'm pretty sure their care and concern comes from heart. They don't have to introduce me nice guys actually. Because I believe we will meet eventually if it's fated.

Meeting the one unintentionally is like fate.

Knowing one another is like chemistry (I prefer biology actually, hate chem).

Finding the right one makes the imperfect, perfect.

Whether it is or not the right one, my heart can tell. I don't need people to tell me if it's real or unreal. Even if the one (I'm refering to the right and wrong one) mean to back out halfway, I too can sense it. My EQ can be low, well, that's what my gfs told me. It's low, but I'm sure I can still feel love. Love is a special thing, you can't see, but you can feel it as long as it exist.

I don't need a perfect guy, I just need someone right next to me being supportive, understanding, loving and caring. Someone who thinks my imperfect makes the perfect.
 

Anyway, I'm not gonna make a choice based on criterias. Long time ago, I thought that basic criterias matter. But I guess someone prove me wrong. Every girls want to find the perfect guy for themselves, someone who can give them a family with warmth or sense of security. I always thought I need a bf or husband who's old enough to take good care of me because I'm childish, playful and insensible to take good care of myself. True, I'm independent in certain aspects but not all. Then I realised something. Age doesn't demonstrate capability of taking care of the other. It's the maturity and the mindset that matter.

I'm wrong, and I'm not gonna continue with my mistakes.

I always thought there's boundaries for people from different world. Now I've learnt that, differences is just a mere line within. The line doesn't exist when love exist.

There's no boundaries for love.

I'm not gonna look at age, height (I'm short enough, doubt there can be any guys shorter than me), weight, education and finance. I'll just go with whoever that can give me happiness and comfort zone when I'm ready. A good choice isn't it?

Smile across

I was smiling yesterday, I am smiling today and I will smile tomorrow simply because life is too short to cry for anything.

Stop feeling alone, start laughing.
Stop dreaming, start believing.
Stop fighting, start loving.
Stop thinking, start acting.

Because no matter how many mistakes you make, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn't trying. Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open.

Live my life

23th September 2012

An original is worth more than a copy.

 

It was a tiring day because I had a terrible night the day before. I was in a rather blue mood feeling upset over stuffs that I've tried to get over. Well, I'm not that sort of person who likes to daunt on the past or rather you can called it unhappy stuffs. When something happened, I prefer to solve them rather than laying low quietly. I like to live my life happy instead of living in the past. No matter how hard things were, I would try my best to move on. No matter how hard and tedious it's going to be, I will never give up on moving on. I knew that staying motionless and stationary on the same spot is not gonna make me better. I might be down with sorrows but believe me, time can heal all wounds. Even if time is not enough to heal, your perseverance will.

 

Watched Possession with my folks. The storyline of the movie was great but I can't really judge due to my terrible mood. I used to hide behind my shawl whenever I'm watching a horror movie. I might even squeal in fright or tremble in fear. Unfortunately, I was so upset on that particular day that I sat motionless all the way despite Mw squealing in fright.

 

Well, that's so unpredictable of me. I guessed I must be really upset then.

 

#Jacky & Mw

 

#Jacky and Me

 

#Jason & Me

 

#Jason and Mw

We had a very early dinner because Uncle Jason was really hungry. We had steamboat for dinner. What a right time for someone emo like me! Lol, still I never eat much for dinner that night. I was trying my best to put on the brightest smile but I guessed I failed. I didn't want to affect the rest, so I pretended to be a cheerie cherry.

 

#In threes

Nothing makes me happier other than shopping. I love shopping, yes, my friends think I'm a shopaholic. Well, I dont care how people sees me. I only see myself the way I want. I might seems like a shopaholic, but I think before I shop. It's just that no one know what's on my mind. I like buying quality stuffs because I know quality last longer than quantity. Well, I dont buy quality stuffs at all time. There are certain stuffs that are good enough even if they are cheap and budget. I'm a shopper with big brains. Haha.

 

#Happy gatherings

Had a great catchup with folks and I hope they enjoy this gathering. Chill out soon, peeps.

Have a nice day ahead.

Cheers,
Pzy

Daunting

Pardon me for my vulgarities. Please leave this page if you know you are unable to take it.

I'm in a fucking lousy mood lately, trying my best to cheer myself up. I even tried to cheer my friends who are down. I put in effort trying hard to talk to them, I ended up getting shit from them. They dont even appreciate my well of goodness. I'm too having a bad time, and I still talked nicely. They arrowed me in all ways they like. What the fuck! So be it then, I'll just give my precious time to my precious ones. There's no meaning daunting on the unhappiness and lowering my pride just to fucking please these unappreciative people. It just sux! The feeling sux to core and I'm freaking pissed off. They are expecting too much from me. I'm just a human, a living thing. I'm not born to serve them! Fuck their shit!

Climbing the walls

21th September 2012

Shot me out of the sky, you're my kryptonite

 

It's a long night and I met up with Sop to chillout. Well, not exactly chill out. We had plans for later actually. We were at Clarke Quay and surprisingly, I saw many familiar faces. That was rather creepy and unexpected though. We headed to Harry's Bar and I had Snowball.

 

 

We had a really long talk about updates and stuffs before we headed to meet Carl at the club.

 

Have a nice day.

 

Cheers,

Pzy

Never alone

It's sufferings. I'm still working hard trying to get over it. I'm feeling really down and guilty. I had no idea how I should react to my friends who were down as well. Each time, when they are down, I try really hard to cheer them up no matter how terrible I'm feeling inside. I would feign a smile and laughed as heartily as I could. It was my dying moment and I tried my very best to survive this terrible ordeal. I had no more strength to bring smiles and happiness to those who are down. I was feeling guilty because I was very upset that they still poured their sorrows at me and they expected me to care for them. I wanted to care, but I had no strength to care any further. Before I can save the others, I need to save myself. I just wonder if they can be more considerate about my feelings. They should not expect anymore from me at this moment.



 

Still, I standby my decision. I tried my best not to ponder too much. I tried to stay calm and pack myself with lots of activities hoping that these gonna ease my pain.

I know that I'm never alone with the lovest and dearest ones that care for me.

 

Have a nice day ahead.

 

Cheers,

Pzy

Every breath and hour

22nd September 2012

Now this mountain I must climb, feels like a world upon my shoulders.

 

Love Teng the best. She was busy-like-a-bumble-bee all the time. Upon knowing that I was in shit, she made arrangement with her dearest hubby, finding time for me. Credits to her hubby and her (the most of it). I was so touched that she made my day perfect. She turned my problem into greatest jokes. I really missed my old time with her, talking about nonsensical topics that never gonna make sense forver. Like a midas touch, it touches my heart. Although we all moved on, but we always care for one another. It's a friendship that's strongly bonded. This ship shall never sink even till I grow old and die, because it's a love that exist. No one can ever remove it from history.

 

We met at Somerset 313. We were kind of fated to meet. She made a call to me at Diva, and I was at Diva. The greatest coincidence ever. We had ramen at Ramen Play. We talked about problems and updated one another. It was really a great day even though Ss wasn't around. Oops, I'm glad that she doesn't read my blog.

 

#At Hurs

 

#Waiting for my shoes

 

I was as happy as a lark because I got myself 2 pairs of shoes @ Hurs at a dirt cheap pricing. The usual price for a pair is SGD60 plus. I encountered sales. I love sales. I got 2 pairs for less than 70 bucks. Such a good feeling to buy something that I really love. Teng looked speechless when I kept trying on shoes. I love shoes because I believed that a good pair of beautiful shoes will make your day perfect by bring you to place you desire.

 

I love watches too. Time is precious and it reminds me of the good time I spent with the good people.

 

I can never resist temptation of shoes and watches.

#Nom nom

 

#A.venue Bistro

 

#Ice-lemon tea

#Me and Teng

 

It's desert time. It's supposed to be dinner actually. But, well, ahuh, someone hit town really late. We ended up having super late lunch. How can we ever shuffed food into our tummy any further. It's all destined. The hp reception was really bad. I had to place my hp all the way to the corner of the table. It had to be stationed for a while before I could receive my msgs. It was awful for Teng, she had no signal entirely even though she tried hard to search for it but in vain.

 

 

 

#Melten Chocolate

Heart beats fast, colours and promises.
How to be brave, how can I love when I'm afraid to fall.

Have a nice day ahead. Grip you dreams and goals tight because fate lies in your hand. We create fate and not let fate create us. Have the faith in yourself and dreams stay alive.

Cheers,
Pzy

With loves

I'm feeling glad and thankful lately for having real friends that really care for me when I was down. I hadn't been doing great, days ago. I was really lost and I thought I was all alone. It was then, realization strucked upon me and made me realised I was loved all along. Friends lend me their listening ears and did their best to cheer me up. Even the busiest ones took leave to accompany me. The best ones came to me in the middle of the night just to comfort me. The dating ones cast their bf aside at once, when knowing I was feeling terrible (Apologies to the understanding bfs of theirs). They shower me with love, buying me my favourite chocolates, ice-cream, candies. They gave in to me at all time no matter how demanding I was. Even when I yelled out loud, shooing them away for a peaceful moment, they stood by me. I'm really grateful to them because they never once left me when I was nothing but crippled in mind. I recovered because of them.

 

I love my dearest friends and they will be forever on my mind.

 

 

With loves,

Pzy

Marina and the diamond

Someone that can never be replace

I used to be happy even if the sky is falling down. People around me sense my sadness. They knew it, but still, they gave me support. I'm very grateful for having these friends who standby me all the time. I know, if I continue the wrong way, they would worry for me. Hence, I decided to put a stop. Probably, a final stop to everything.

 

I wanna be myself. I miss the happy me. I want to be my usual self. The one who cares about nothing except sincerity and being confident. I would neither bring myself down, nor bow to the disagreement. I will stand by my faith and do what I want. I have goals and dreams, why should I waste time on things that do not belong with me.

 

I love being myself.

 

Trust me, I will be myself.

 

A "Me" that no one can ever replace.

 

I want to live with glory, proud, confident and happiness.

 

 

Cheers,

Pzy

Incredible inspiration

15th September 2012

To be inspired is great, to inspire is incredible

 

It's been quite a while since we last spent wonderful time together. Kbox was definitely a ripped off. We only sang for 3 hrs and it cost us $28nett per pax. They are incredible robbers. Anyway, I had terrible cough lately. Well, it's not just lately. It's been 3 weeks or more. I'm still coughing away due to some virus. It was similar to asthma but probably mild problem. Hopefully, I won't ever need to use the inhaler. It gonna makes me look really sick.

 

#Yan & I

 

#Yan & I

 

After our singing session, we were starving. I brought her to try Togi @ Chinatown. It was a famous Korean  restaurant. I love korean food always, probably my all time favourite. In fact, it was very hard to find authentic ones in Sg. The one we had @ Chinatown was an authentic outlet. The owners of the restaurants were koreans.

 

#Bibimbap

 

#Stir-fried beef

 

#Spicy Toufu Soup

 

#Big feast

 

We ordered 4 person share when there's only two of us. The other patrons were looking at us, probably freaked out by our amazing appetite. Our meal at Togi was our very first meal. We simply gobbled up everything in less than an hour. It was kind of scary to think of it.

 

Having nowhere to go, Yan ended up shopping necessaties at chinatown. She bought stuffs like shampoo, cotton pad. Well, basically, she's doing marketing. She even bought a brolly that caused me to laugh like hell.

 

 

 

#Chinatown

Good night, everyone.

It's Monday Blue tomorrow, even so, strive hard and work hard.

Cheers,
Pzy

Never stop trying

14th September 2012

Beauty is not in a face, it is a light in the heart.

 

It's just 4 more days to Berlin's birthday. I knew she was mad about Kitty. I called it 'Kitty Infatuation'. Oh gosh, I seriously hate Hello Kitty. I find it neither adorable nor lovely. Worst scenario, I hate pink stuffs. I like earth colours only. It's really challenging for me to enter Sanrio department to shop for Kitty stuffs. It made me go dizzy like crazy.

 

Well, I got her a Hello Kitty makeup pouch. It's a new arrival and it's in red. I got it for her to match with her wallet. I seriously think that my life is dull. All my gfs like sweet colours (purple and pink). Since it's her bday, shall let her decide on dinner. We had Sho Teppan for dinner. Wyagu beef is ♥ .

 

#Soup
 

 

#At Sho Teppan

 

Berlin complained that the man behind us spoiled the picture. I agreed to the most.

 

"Berlin, why you no shoo him off?"

 

# Berlin and Me

 

#Rice set

 

I accidentally burnt my tongue because the soup was too hot. Stupid me just gulp it down and burnt my tongue. It's still haven't recover by now. Oh, that's sad.

 

#Birthday Girl

 

She was so happy to receive her present. She was very firm that it's not Hello Kitty product because she knew that I hate Kitty. She turned out very touched when she realised it's a Hello Kitty makeup pouch. She even gave me a smirky grin which made me laughed out loud. I knew she wanted a Kitty makeup pouch but it wasn't cheap. But y'know, she was the best best best best sweetheart of mine. So it's worth spending on her.

 

#Unwrapping

 

#Smirk grin

 

#Berling & Me

 

#Hello Kitty Pouch

Happy Birthday Berlin, I really hope you like the present from me. You are always there for me when I need you the most. I remembered the days we had during Secondary School days, the day you went all the way to buy me KOI cup (there's no KOI outlet near my place), showering me with nice goodies when you are on your travelling trip and flooding me with love.

Stay young, cute, pretty and have a blissful journey with your bf. I'll be your best general manager on your big day for prank plans.

Have a nice day ahead.
Nothing can stop you from striving to your dream as long as you never stop trying.

Cheers,
Pzy

Taken for granted

There were times when I felt as if I was taken for granted. It may seems to be I'm a joyous person. Indeed, I am, or I was. Everyone met their downturn, so do I. I'm not happy all the time. I tried my best to cheer my friends up when they are down. I think hard for funny jokes. I did funny stunts to make them happy. Things turned out differently when I failed to fulfil attention to them. When I was down, who's gonna do all these to make me happy?

~ Speechless

P/S: Please take note that this is just a random post. I'm not directing at anyone. It's just thoughts running through my mind.