Behing the screen

I'm feeling really down now. This is probably the worst period of the year I'm going through. 2 months ago, I went through a really tough time and I thought nothing could be worse than that. I was on my recovery mode when the catastrophe strucked me. It was the major incident ever. I wished I was dreaming. I slapped and pinched myself wishing that I could feel no pain. My heart was in great pain. I was scared and frightened. I shivered in fear from time to time. I'm feeling lost. I told myself to fight this like a cool bitch, I did it on the surface. I cried like a child when the curtain's finally closing. I know I'm going crazy.