Chapter 1 Gain VS Loss

In each loss there is a gain, as in every gain there is a loss and with each ending comes a new beginning. Life can be beautiful. It can be a prick as well. Everyone wants the best of both worlds, so am I. I always believe that I am a blissful person. Yes, even till now despite losing a good friend. 

We cry over people we once loved. But today, bridges have been burnt. Letting go doesn't mean I stop caring. It only means I stop trying to force others to care. It takes two hands to clap and we all knew love is reciprocal. Honestly, I still think of her at times, wishing her happiness from faraway. She may be hating me because I left. The people that are quick to walk away are the ones who never intended to stay and she was always the one. It was my truly my first attempt to walk away and I did not turn back at then. It was not an easy task but I felt broken. "Disappointment" is not even strong enough to describe my feelings at then. After all, Rome wasn't build in a day and I was the jerk who broke her.

I could never imagine my most important moment without her. However, she disappeared in a twist of fate. It was a difficult choice and I would not have done so if there was still turning point. 

People asked me if I would turn back if she approaches me again. Maybe I will or maybe not. There's no "maybe" because I understand her well enough to know that she will not do so with her given character not having trust in people which includes me as well.

People talks and I listen because I always find out amazing things about myself that I never knew which can be entertaining. Some people don't want to hear the truth because they don't want their illusion destroyed. Whereas, some people look forward to the truth because they are over confident that the truth is not going to shattered them. 

We all claimed to be unbothered by critiques and remarks. It's self proclaim. Deep within, I doubt I can be completely unbothered. However, I am willing to make changes if fault is with me. It is definitely mission impossible for me.

If there is a second chance, what will my reaction be?

There is no second chance in life. It's a growing up process. We learn, we strive. Maybe someday, we will meet. All the events of unhappiness fade away and a new chapter sparks off.

Maybe...

Nobody knows...