It hadn't been good since the disastrous incident. Yes, something happened unexpectedly at work which made me demoralised. It's all because of a rain which I wish not describe any further to upset myself. I learnt something valuable a real though. I learnt an awesome lecture which taught me how different tone can affect different scenarios. It's definitely something I wish to pick up. It was indeed a skill. I was demoralised but I was motivated to make things better.
Yes, things will be great again.
Tuesday, April 25, 2017
Friday, April 14, 2017
My wine friends
I was making preparations plan for my wedding when I looked back at some photos. I felt blessed that I was loved by the important ones who played and plays an important roles in my life. Yes, they are irritating, noisy, bitchy and nosy. My wine friends are dear to heart.
"Alcohol may not solve your problems. But neither will tea and sodas."
Chapter 3 Rich VS Poor
"The rich get richer and the poor get poorer" is a catchphrase that evokes discussion in economic inequality at all times. I personally find this rather true and realistic ever since my first embark on my career.
I only stop feeling embarrassed about where I come from when I was 21. I am born in an average family. In fact, it's labelled as low income family. My father was the sole breadwinner. When I was young, I witnessed several terminations of electricity and water supply simply because my family could not afford to pay the bills. Not only that, police officers came to knock on my door and took my dad away because of long overdue house loan. I was traumatised because I had my own understandings during that age. I was able to make justification and had awareness of all the happenings.
I loathed my dad's employer who was a relative of mine. He fucked my life entirely. My dad was not well paid and he took advantage of him to boost his business. I nearly turned into a dropout because I was negative about my life. He made me felt ashamed of myself. I stopped working hard because of negativity. I stooped low from a studious student with good results in the top class to flunking my papers. I became rebellious and developed a bad girl image.
Perhaps, fate pitied me and gave me a second chance. I was about to face the music of not being able to graduate when hope struck me. I made it to my next learning journey. Still, it was disastrous. Just when I was on my way to positivity, my hope dashed once again. I could not afford the expensive school fees, laptop and allowances. Yea, those were my nightmares.
Looking back at it, I was amazed by myself too. I would say... I'm proud of myself. I took up 3 jobs. I work as a sales assistant after school hours and a waitress at a F&B outlet till late night or usually after 2am. I took up freelance teaching jobs during weekend mornings. Honestly, I doubt I can do the same thing again. Laughs. I graduated and found myself a job eventually.
I might not be the best but I truly believe I really hard.
Then one day, I got a wake up call. I gained a painful and unexpected experience. The pain level was incredibly high that I told myself that I want to be different. I witnessed the successful people gaining more success and the rich getting richer. I witness the powerful and influential belittling the poor. I bear the pain in mind and told myself that I will stand up someday and show them I have the capability to change my life.
I gave up a full time job and started venturing on my freelance career. I was mocked by many. They laughed behind me and thought that I was useless and stupid. They criticised that I could not go anywhere without a degree. They saw no prospect in my job and looked down on me.
I never told anyone except the closer ones. The fact is that I'm doing pretty fine with my freelance "hopeless" job as claimed by bystanders. It was all good. In fact, I was overwhelmed by my teeny tiny little success because I was earning more than a degree holder at the age of 21. I started to travel and partied every weekend. It was the craziest point of my life. The conservative ones thought my actions to be incorrigible. I'm glad I did not miss it.
I worked extremely hard and gave up my weekends for work. I wanted to earn more money because I knew that I need money to make more money. I know I need a lump sum of money to take myself to another level. My parents could not afford to fund me. I have nothing to mortgage to the bank for a loan. So, I need everything in cash. I work from doubly to triply hard as the risk of exhausting myself. It was all worth it.
I started my first company when I was 26. It is not a proud thing, but it is my greatest proud. I started from nothing to owning my own company without any financial help. I started with business plans and models but no one believe in me, not even my family. I started sourcing for a location and my dream began ever since then.
I was afraid and nervous to try but I never hesitate despite the risks. I was prepared to face worst scenarios. I have nothing to lose because I was born with nothing much in the first place. It was incredibly awesome to watch those jaws dropped when they attended my opening. Those jaws used to be the one who told me "You can't!"
I am not successful yet, but I will strive to be that someone someday. I will prove to them that someone lowly can be great with positivity. I am not afraid of failures. I am only afraid that I might not have enough time in my entire life to have enough tries. After all, everyone will grow and die someday. I wanna live like everyday is the last day of my life.
I want to have a better life and I know that yanking about it, sitting by doing nothing except drink, drank, drunk is not gonna make my life amazing. I faced obstacles and I overcame many of them. I just got to face more of them before reaching my goals.
Being poor is not shameful. But it is shameful not to work hard and remain the way as it is without striving to make changes. I truly love my life because I am doing something that I yearn to. I know this is just the beginning, but I am prepared.
No one knows the outcome or future, we just got to put in our best and keep trying.
I only stop feeling embarrassed about where I come from when I was 21. I am born in an average family. In fact, it's labelled as low income family. My father was the sole breadwinner. When I was young, I witnessed several terminations of electricity and water supply simply because my family could not afford to pay the bills. Not only that, police officers came to knock on my door and took my dad away because of long overdue house loan. I was traumatised because I had my own understandings during that age. I was able to make justification and had awareness of all the happenings.
I loathed my dad's employer who was a relative of mine. He fucked my life entirely. My dad was not well paid and he took advantage of him to boost his business. I nearly turned into a dropout because I was negative about my life. He made me felt ashamed of myself. I stopped working hard because of negativity. I stooped low from a studious student with good results in the top class to flunking my papers. I became rebellious and developed a bad girl image.
Perhaps, fate pitied me and gave me a second chance. I was about to face the music of not being able to graduate when hope struck me. I made it to my next learning journey. Still, it was disastrous. Just when I was on my way to positivity, my hope dashed once again. I could not afford the expensive school fees, laptop and allowances. Yea, those were my nightmares.
Looking back at it, I was amazed by myself too. I would say... I'm proud of myself. I took up 3 jobs. I work as a sales assistant after school hours and a waitress at a F&B outlet till late night or usually after 2am. I took up freelance teaching jobs during weekend mornings. Honestly, I doubt I can do the same thing again. Laughs. I graduated and found myself a job eventually.
I might not be the best but I truly believe I really hard.
Then one day, I got a wake up call. I gained a painful and unexpected experience. The pain level was incredibly high that I told myself that I want to be different. I witnessed the successful people gaining more success and the rich getting richer. I witness the powerful and influential belittling the poor. I bear the pain in mind and told myself that I will stand up someday and show them I have the capability to change my life.
I gave up a full time job and started venturing on my freelance career. I was mocked by many. They laughed behind me and thought that I was useless and stupid. They criticised that I could not go anywhere without a degree. They saw no prospect in my job and looked down on me.
I never told anyone except the closer ones. The fact is that I'm doing pretty fine with my freelance "hopeless" job as claimed by bystanders. It was all good. In fact, I was overwhelmed by my teeny tiny little success because I was earning more than a degree holder at the age of 21. I started to travel and partied every weekend. It was the craziest point of my life. The conservative ones thought my actions to be incorrigible. I'm glad I did not miss it.
I worked extremely hard and gave up my weekends for work. I wanted to earn more money because I knew that I need money to make more money. I know I need a lump sum of money to take myself to another level. My parents could not afford to fund me. I have nothing to mortgage to the bank for a loan. So, I need everything in cash. I work from doubly to triply hard as the risk of exhausting myself. It was all worth it.
I started my first company when I was 26. It is not a proud thing, but it is my greatest proud. I started from nothing to owning my own company without any financial help. I started with business plans and models but no one believe in me, not even my family. I started sourcing for a location and my dream began ever since then.
I was afraid and nervous to try but I never hesitate despite the risks. I was prepared to face worst scenarios. I have nothing to lose because I was born with nothing much in the first place. It was incredibly awesome to watch those jaws dropped when they attended my opening. Those jaws used to be the one who told me "You can't!"
I am not successful yet, but I will strive to be that someone someday. I will prove to them that someone lowly can be great with positivity. I am not afraid of failures. I am only afraid that I might not have enough time in my entire life to have enough tries. After all, everyone will grow and die someday. I wanna live like everyday is the last day of my life.
I want to have a better life and I know that yanking about it, sitting by doing nothing except drink, drank, drunk is not gonna make my life amazing. I faced obstacles and I overcame many of them. I just got to face more of them before reaching my goals.
Being poor is not shameful. But it is shameful not to work hard and remain the way as it is without striving to make changes. I truly love my life because I am doing something that I yearn to. I know this is just the beginning, but I am prepared.
No one knows the outcome or future, we just got to put in our best and keep trying.
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